Then I stopped by my sweet local fabric shop. I was telling the owner about the Living Water Quilt and picking her brain for ideas to increase donations. I told her that I felt sort of dead about the whole thing and sluffed it off with a "probably just January" mumble. To which she replied, "Or your Dad."
(silence)
My heart felt like it would burst open. She's sooooo lucky that the tears didn't start to flow.
Even though I've been keeping myself busy with good things, my heart is still sad about my Dad being in a nursing home. I wish I could care for him here and feel guilty that I can't. I wish I could make him happy. I wish we could go back in time to the days when he lived independently.
May Dad also be filled with Your peace and love.
Please make the donation now. A village in Africa needs our help.
blessings,
pam
Sorry you are feeling bad. I made another donation (Giraffe Dreams). Good luck with the fund raiser!
ReplyDeleteOh Pam, please come by for a hugh hug and we can have a huge blubbering cry together. It is hard when our parents age, it makes us realize that they will not be here forever. But I think what you are doing is such a wonderful tribute to your Dad, especially while he is here to know about it. He will be very proud and honored with your plans for this beautiful quilt you made for him. The quilt that once gave him love, comfort,and peace will now do the same for the people in Africa when they get a well. You are an inspiration and a blessing to all of us that know you and to those that do not know you. God bless and keep you, I am proud to be your friend.
ReplyDeleteMuch Love and Friendship, Marita
I hope you've managed that good healing cry. It's amazing how much that can help. It's clears your mind and and helps you to put things into perspective. I hope you're feeling better soon!
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful quilt to honor your Dad and all he means to you. Even if he can't tell you so, he knows your heart, and that you want the best for him. I know how you're feeling right now, we went through a similar situation with my mom several years ago. I've just spent some time on the Blood:Water Mission and Crowdrise sites and made a donation toward your raffle (under name Dennis and Pat). May God bring you peace during this difficult time.
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